Wednesday, December 19, 2012

My Spiritual Beliefs

In this post I will outline what I do and do not believe in Spirituality.

Things I do not believe:

  1. Original Sin. The idea that all humans are born imperfect of evil, stemming from the story of Adam and Eve's punishment.
  2. The idea of condemnation, or that God punishes people and sends them to hell.
  3. The idea that Jesus is God.
  4. That only people who believe in Jesus Christ can be "saved" and go to heaven, and those who "sin" cannot.
  5. The idea that God's love is conditional.

Things I do believe:
  1. God exists. I believe that God exists and God is All-That-Is. God is everything that exists.
  2. I believe that Jesus is not God. I believe that Jesus while certainly enlightened, as Buddha was, however I do not equate Jesus as God.  As previously stated, I believe God is Everything That Exists. God is Life. 
  3. I believe God's love is unconditional. Unconditional love is defined as love without conditions. I believe not only that God's love is unconditional, but that God is Unconditional Love itself. We are made of unconditional love. Because God's love is unconditional, he loves people without conditions, and therefore does not punish anyone or condemn them, or judge them or forgive them. Note: In order to forgive someone, you must have had to judge them first. God does not forgive anyone, because he has never judged them in the first place. He has always unconditionally loved them.
There is not much more to say. People cannot imagine a person with unconditional love who does not judge, and so they cannot imagine a God who does either. But God is Life, and God is Unconditional Love.


Tuesday, December 4, 2012

Happiness From External Things

Wow, I realized it's been a little more than a year, since my last blog post. And I had no idea, for the most part, what I was writing about. Which means, of course, that next year I'll reflect back on this writing and think similar thoughts - or not. Who knows?

I just want to write a quick post on my thoughts about money inspired by a recent conversation. Not money specifically, though money suits the example quite well.

The problem with seeking happiness in exterior things is that you feel unfulfilled even when receive the thing you were craving. It is often not even what you truly desire, but it is a symbol you have been taught to believe (by yourself or others), which you think will make you feel happiness. People who seek riches in order to liberate themselves from earthy  problems in pursuit of an idealized version of perfection in life, ultimately end up chasing that dream and never finding it. The problem, of course, is that the problem is emotional, and not something money can fill. A lack of love cannot be remedied by a surplus of money. Sure, it can be bandaged, and temporarily soothed, but in the long run the pain will re-emerge, (to the surprise of the one experiencing it) and be even worse.

So how to fix this problem? Realize that getting what you think you want may not make you happy. And in addition, learn being happy independent of what you think you need in order to feel good. Therefore, when you actually obtain that symbol, whatever it is, you will feel more fulfilled.

Anyway these were my thoughts at the moment, and I will probably add to them with another post later.

Friday, November 18, 2011

A Profound Lesson


Yesterday was a magnificent sunset; It was particularly captivating. I am prone to noticing magnificent sunsets as my room view is positioned directly west, and due to the geographical landscape of my area, I have the privilege to witness some of the most heavenly skies I've ever seen - only when I notice them, of course. For the longest time, I didn't recognize beauty where it was -- it's only there for those seeking it. Now, however, I am more aware of it.

Yesterday, the sunset bore remarkable resemblance to a galaxy. It was scary how much it resembled photos of the Milky Way. Perhaps I'm just passionate about it, but I am not exaggerating as much as you might think I am. Unfortunately, I couldn't snap any photos of it. Rest assured, I enjoyed it immensely -- and that's really what's important. But the story I wish to tell is about today's trip to see a nice sunset.

So let is begin from there now.

My intention was to witness a nice sunset -- perhaps like yesterday's, if I was lucky.
My plan was to go to the top of Centennial Hill so I have an unobstructed view for gazing and photography purposes. Unfortunately due to sloppy planning, by the time I left, the sun had almost set.
Against my parents' protests about the futility of venturing on such a cold eve since it was already late, I decided to go anyway.

What started out a simple trip, turned into a profound meditation into the human condition.

It seemed like the wind was tempting me to quit, endlessly lashing gusts of cold air in my face.
Admittedly, I was probably underequipped for such a cold eve; nevertheless, it was too late to turn back now. I chose to bike there, which has both pros and cons in a sense. It meant I would arrive at my destination faster. The con...well, if you've ever biked fast against the wind for a prolonged amount of time in a very chilly day, then you would know. I had come for a reason, and for better or worse, I would get there anyway; pain couldn't discourage me.

Finally I arrived. I made my way to the top of the hill. The now barren, desolate, landscape of the top that once blossomed with greenery seemed unusually empty. I stood alone beside a tree, stripped of its leaves; its naked branches flailing in the wind. Here I was, with an unobstructed, 360 degree view of many of Toronto's Landmarks. Directly east, I faced the CN Tower, and not far from my gaze, was the airport. And, of course, there was the sunset - the real purpose of my trip.
It wasn't anything special by my standards, but then again, these things are either a hit or miss. The clouds in the sky, each with their unique characteristics and shapes, and sunsets, are like snowflakes - each is unique. So I stood on the top of a hill, civilization below me, gazing at the slightly disappointing sunset. And then, it happened. I thought the sun had set, but all of a sudden the clouds grew illuminated with a deep rich colour. Their essence was infused more and more with fiery colour as the red rays of the sun permeated more and more within them, and I stood in awe at this transformation. Such pleasant, bright, fresh red, it was. And then I looked around, gazing far at the other directions, which now stood much darker and gloomier.That's when I realized something else.
Despite the gloomy darkness that covered the vast majority of the skies, my attention rested solely on the burning red specs of light that burst through the clouds. In other words, I didn't focus on the dark, I focused on the LIGHT. It struck me that life is no different - filled with both its positive and negative dramas. The only thing we REALLY have control is where we place our FOCUS. And sometimes, especially in difficult situations, when darkness seems prevalent, it's so hard to notice the light - the positive, the beauty that exists. But nevertheless, it is there if you seek it; if you focus on it.

Something wonderful also occurred. The darker the rest of the sky got, the brighter that focused patch burned. How is this relevant to anything else? I saw it as an existential metaphor for the powerful ability we have to turn around any situation. The worse things get, the more potential for good arises. The darker things seem, the more potential benefit there is to gained; Powerful lessons can be learned in such a situation.
With this realization and with the gorgeous sunset almost, but not entirely gone, I descended downwards on my bike, self-assured, and glad that I ventured, despite my many doubts. The mundane can really offer us powerful metaphors and lessons for existence.
- August 18th, 2011.

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Paranormal Phenomena and the Scientific Community

This blog post is going to be about my general discontent with the general unscientific and close-minded, in my opinion, approach towards paranormal subjects in academia. In psychology class, we had the pleasure of watching a documentary about the idea of alien abductions. The documentary revolved around several self-proclaimed abductees and an artist who held weekly therapy sessions with them, as well as performing hypnosis and various other forms of regression on them. Some scientists such as Carl Sagan and the late John E. Mack as well as other prominent researchers of such phenomena, and science-popularizers were interviewed as well.

Before I begin my critique, it is first important to introduce and define a concept known as Occam's Razor. This principle, often applied in critical thinking, states that the simplest explanation is the one that is most likely true. For instance, consider someone's account of seeing a strange object in the sky. Generally, the simplest explanation in this case would be that the object was an airplane (perhaps whose form looked different from a particular angular perspective or reflection), and definitely not an extra-terrestrial spacecraft.

Often Occam's razor is useful; however, there are rare exceptions and problems with this paradigm of thinking. A big problem, the way I see it, is the given perspective of examining and issue an assigning a certain label based on ones past history, bias and so forth. In other words, what is simple? Isn't something simple to us, relatively not so for another culture? And of course, often times, the simplest explanation isn't the correct one. In the above ufo sighting example, it is probably correct, but what would happen in a different culture? Consider an indigenous society, one of many such societies currently inhabiting isolated jungles in, say, South America. Such a society, primitive by our standards, will likely attribute the sighting of an unknown object as a familiar one - such as, say, a bird or an eagle. To them, this really would be the simplest explanation; Indeed, it may be turn out to be correct most of the time, but in the case of the plane, it would not. This is one of the pitfalls one could fall into when taking Occam's razor tooseriously.

This, therefore, begs the question: "Do we really know what's simple?" Can we evaluate things in such a way? Are we qualified to do so? In many cases, Occam's razor serves us just fine, but it should not be the final verdict; Rather, Occam's razor is a simple heuristical tool - nothing more, nothing less.

Now, back to the topic at hand.
So in this documentary, we have an artist, who devoid of any scientific credentials, conducts regular therapy sessions to people who have read his books about abductions and written to him about their experiences. Though not formally trained, he seems well-versed and fairly intelligent. Many of these people come with conscious memories of such experiences, often traumatic, and he uses a process of hypnotic regression to extract supposedly hidden, locked-away, memories of other encounters. It is important to note that the subjects in the cases all seem to be comprised of people from all walks of life, intelligent, mentally sane and no sign of any other problems (except, perhaps some trauma from said incidents).

Long story short, after meeting with the artist/therapy facilitator, John E. Mack - a prominent, Pulitzer-prize winning, Harvard Medical School psychiatrist, agreed to do a study and analyze some of these patients and their stories. Though he was highly skeptical initially, his disbelief gradually diminished as he uncovered remarkable consistencies in each case (all the stories were nearly identical), coupled with sincerity, intense emotional states, honesty and remarkable conviction in all the subjects. Through his experience with hundreds of patients prior to this investigation, he knew something was up, so to speak.

Could it really be any other way? The subjects all had remarkably similar accounts, no prior history of mental problems or any other questionable characteristics that would make him doubt the case. After that study, John E. Mack became a proponent of the cause and believed that this was a legitimate phenomenon requiring more study.

Carl Sagan, who I also highly respect, said that one cannot easily dismiss these findings as there is an obvious phenomenon of either remarkably similar hallucinations en masse, OR legitimate encounters with alien beings. Sagan, who launched the SETI (Search for Extraterrestrial Intelligence) many years ago, concluded that he had no doubt that these were hallucinations; After all, nobody had any concrete proof of the existence of aliens yet.

Other professors and researchers were also featured and claimed that such phenomena were often the cause of hypnagogic states, hypnagogic hallucinations, other kinds of night terror dreams and other things.

Perhaps the saddest part of this story is that of academia's general closed-mindedness and unwillingness to look deeper into the validity of such paranormal phenomena. John E. Mack, for instance, was investigated on numerous occasions by peers appointed by Harvard and this drew criticism from many people, including Harvard Professor of Law, Alan Dershowitz, as they had no grounds to do so based on ethics or any other reasons. As Angela Hind said, "It was the first time in Harvard's history that a tenured professor was subjected to such an investigation." Eventually, of course, Harvard relented by apologizing and respecting John E. Mac's freedom to study the subject of his choosing. Sadly, many scientists and academics are unwilling to explore such issues -- an attitude which is not scientific at all. Their bias, as evidenced in Harvard's appointment of peers to check over Mack's research, remains only but a single example of the pervasive resistance of studying unorthodox phenomena in the scientific community. No matter how insane a subject appears at first-hand (needless to say, almost all scientific theories did at one point), many cases, such as this one aren't easily dismissible and require more attention and research.

The way I see, occam's razor applies up to a given point. One can, generally, attribute hypnagogic hallucinations as a cause to a handful of individuals retelling encounters with alien beings, but to what extent? What if it was 1000 individuals? 10,000? 100,000? Millions?
What is the 'simplest explanation' of hundreds of thousands of mentally sane people having remarkably similar memories who they tell with great emotional conviction? What about thousands of people who 'remember' similar experiences in an altered trance state of consciousness under regression hypnosis? Of course, many people question the validity of the aforementioned technique as some scientists study people's suggestibility and argue that people can be trained to make up and alter memories.

Many scientists are fearful for loss of their reputation to even venture to research such claims, let alone ague for it. John E. Mac was one of the brave few to do so, and a true scientist.
I couldn't have said this better than this youtube commenter:

"Rare footage of a rare man. Dr. John Mack was a brilliant and courageous pioneer in a field few would, even, consider. He challenged people's thinking, not to get them to believe what he is saying, but to explore the reasons why they themselves are unwilling to, even, consider such a phenomena.. Straight to the heart of the matter. "

Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Pain, Needs and Unfulfillment

I know I haven't really written on here in a while, but I am getting more involved with poetry and I might start a new blog for it.

In any case, I just had a conversation about something, and I felt the need to get my thoughts out about it, and it does fit the theme of this blog.

You know, I was thinking this...and intellectually it is easier to understand.
Conceptually it makes sense, but in application is where difficulty arises, and doesn't it always happen like that? So, pain arises from expectations not being met. There are, of course, various causes and sources of pain, but I am referring to the idea of psychological pain as it directly relates to the ego. All these expectations, needs, 'musts' we have, are really putting a great deal of STRESS on our being; Unfulfillment causes pain. So, therefore, it does seem logical that relaxing these pressures on our selves will go some way to decrease the intensity of that pain. The issue stems from the fact that we are 'trying' to be some way. Of course, the discrepancy between doing and trying (they are opposites) is what creates the pain. I MUST be this. I MUST be a good student. I MUST be a good partner. I MUST do this, MUST do that. Otherwise what would they think? Otherwise what kind of person would I be? Of course, this relates to many other sociological concepts such as seeking approval from external sources, and so on, but it is the self's, well...rather, the ego's insistence upon fulfilling these strict pressures on the self so that, when things don't happen as expected, you feel bad. You feel pain because you put so much pressure on doing a certain thing, being a certain way, that if somehow, it does not occur, you will be unfulfilled and extremely unhappy. Letting all these compulsions, needs, wants, identities, labels, and concepts of the ego go, and relaxing them and being 'okay' seems to be a better path to freedom. Of course, it's not easy and for some people, it may be more difficult, but it surely seems a more fulfilling path, at least to me.

Friday, April 29, 2011

NZT and Miracle Drugs




I recently saw the movie 'Limitless' and was very intrigued by its concept - a miracle drug which allows its users to use 100% of their brain by fully employing all mental faculties and giving the user a high sense of mental acuity, a deep synthesis between the conscious and subconscious minds, and a deep, penetrating insight into causal relationships.

Wouldn't it be nice to have such a drug and enjoy limitless mental powers? The ability to re-access virtually unlimited knowledge stored somewhere in the mind's subconscious database, a super high IQ and an impenetrable drive and focus, would all be pretty sweet things to have.

Some muse that the movie is really about "adderall" or "ritalin", but these are really just focus-enhancing drugs which barely scratch the surface of the idea of "100% brain use".

Within the study of nootropics - the study of smart drugs or drugs that enhance cognition and mental skills, there is many interesting choices available for someone who wants to mentally process things with more efficiency. Nothing even comes close to the prowess of "NZT", however.

Would such a drug even be possible? Clearly current nootropics aren't even close, and ADD drugs only help with focus improvement. Could the answer lie in the realms of psychedelics such as lysergic acid diethylamide (LSD) whose users report philosophical and transcendental understanding? Perhaps, although LSD is a psychedelic, while NZT, as portrayed in the movie, does not induce hallucinations, rather simply elucidates one's mental vision.

I do think that such a drug may be (already is) possible, although obviously not to the extent of the one in the movie. If steroids are possible, why can't 'mental steroids' exist? Surely, it's not that simple and that's a faulty analogy, since neurology is more complex than muscle hypertrophy. But... I still maintain that there is undeniable demand for such a drug, and there are many individuals with boundless wealth who I'm sure could put resources together to produce or mimic even only 10% of the mythical NZT.

Until then, though, I can dream...

Saturday, March 19, 2011

Money: Good or Evil?


Wow. I can hardly believe that it's been nearly a month since my last post. Time is passing quickly. But it is all in perfect timing anyway. I felt a pictorial aid may be of use, and therefore I used a stack of US dollar bills.

Money:

Unfortunately, many perceive money as a negative thing. Obviously, this understanding stems from an early association of money with negative things. For instance, many people grow up with the belief that rich people are selfish, evil, and countless other negative traits. It isn't difficult to understand why they would see money in a negative light -- they've made conscious and unconscious associations with it to negative traits.

In another example, a child who grows up in a religious family might, unfortunately -- I might add, foster similar beliefs, as it's common for religious people to feel a certain sense of "guilt" or "shame" in regards to money. It could appear in the form of disdain towards material possessions. After all, doesn't the bible teach that money is the 'root of all evil', and I will paraphrase here, "it is easier for a camel to pass through the eye of a needle, than for a rich man to enter the Kingdom of God". However, some form of asceticism - denial of one's natural self, and a suppression of one's natural instincts, desires, and sensuality can be found in most religions.

But how can this be so? For money, like all else, is simply a form of energy. Inherently, it is neutral. It is a tool; a form of exchange. It has no preconceived meaning. None.

For the same money that corrupts people and can be used for evil, to fund wars, and other barbaric endeavors is identical to the one used to build schools, community centres, churches, and a tool for the good, overall.

Objectively speaking, money cannot be evil, for it is a neutral tool. It can be both used constructively and destructively; with good in mind, or with evil.

Meh. Discuss.